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♥ Wednesday, July 15, 2009 @ 10:16 PM
Sorry, it would be a long & sad post for today! Dont ever continue reading if you dont feel like to!! We finally talk things out with her & it did feel abit better! Thou' i think we forgot to say some but at least we tried to talk to her. If not it will be like some silent breaking of friendship! Like what yiqian wrote in her blog. Personally, I do agreed with her! 100% agreed! Sometimes we should accept others' in whether they are good or bad! NO ONE IS PERFECT! EVERY OF OUR FRIENDSHIP IS IMPORTANT! That's true! Sometimes we must also look at the good side of a person & not always thinking of the bad side. Ya, true that she's really bad to make use of others! It's really awful. I will feel so so sad if there's someone making use of me! Really! & I dont wish someone to take me for granted! The feeling SUCKS totally! Maybe I will forget her as 1 of my friend or maybe just those kind of HI-BYE friend.. She will never ever be someone who are close to TC. TOLLYS!! But after this case, I would like to treat ALL ALL ALL of my friends better, I hope that there wont be anything like this, gonna happen again. I dont want to lose any of my friend again! I really hope there's zero chance to lose my friend! I hope I can be close with ALL my friends ALWAYS & ALWAYS! I need my FRIENDS & FAMILY THE MOST!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I LOVE ALL MY FRIENDS & FAMILY!!!!! & OF COURSE MY DOG!!!!!!! I MISS HIM! He's the only "male" I trust the most! He is the only one that has been SO SO SO TRUE to me, the only one that will never ever ever hurt me! The only one I can really really trust, cause he wont lied to me! OMG! I REALLY MISS HIM! LOVE HIM! I would always cry when I pictured myself on that day, 02102008! I would always rmb the time you lying there silently, no movement, no breathing sound, yr stomach feel so hard & you are feeling so cold that time! & I would always rmb abt 1 month before 02102008, you are still barking loudly at us, trying to catch our attention by being fierce to us or by barking for absolutely NO REASON!! I REGRETTED FOR NEGLECTING YOU! I FEEL SO EXTREMELY BAD WHEN THE TIME SOMEONE CALLED ME & SAY YOU ARE DYING & I WAS LIKE " DONT FAKE LA ", " CANNOT BE " !!!!! After some time, my hp rang again. Someone weeping loudly & said that "you passed away!!" Omg! I can exactly rmb the whole incident! BLAMED MYSELF FOR BEING SO IDIOT!! I cant even talk to you for the last last last time! I just misses you! I hope I can put it down! But i cant, whenever I see a dog that is a same breed as you, I would think of you immediately & started to cry alone quietly & not let anyone knows it! I JUST WANT YOU TO KNOW THAT I MISS YOU! But i know you wont be able to know! I just wanna say it out loud that I MISS YOU! <3 So many things had happened & today I talked to someone about my DEEP DEEP secret! Dont ask me who & what!! Dont ever try to ask me! I wont say anything! Just dont know why, I trust that person. There's nobody gonna understand me about this! I feel so weird of myself, DAMN DARN WEIRD! omg! I'm crazy!! I think I'm really crazy! Please ppl, dont ask me! I will feel that i'm abnormal! SERIOUSLY! Actually I wanted to post some photos today but I think this isnt a right time! I will put it up next time when I feels better! (: Labels: I'm feeling so idiot now~ |
