It's the 1st year death anniversary of BROWNIE TOH!!!!!!
He had passed away for 1 year, oh... That's fast!
I brought him to old court today! I bet he miss there alot!
All thanks to haohao for bringing him around & look at the surroundings!
THANKS LA HAOHAO!! I know you love brownie alot! HAHA!!

The very usual thing, I loveeeeeeeeee & misssssssssss him!!!!!!
I wish that he would still around!! Hai but that's impossible!
Why am i still wishing of this? It had been 1 year! Tmd!!!
But really wish him to be around, barking when i'm studying!
Ya, it's annoying but I miss his barking alot!
I would always shouted at him when he bark!!!
"BROWNIE!!!!!! DIAM LA!!!" I miss saying this!
& "Brownie, come come, jiejie sayang!" then he would just heck care me & walked away BUT sometimes he would come obediently!
I love him the most when he always listened to me!!
Of course, I bet every dog's owner wants this!
Sometimes when he come and find me himself.
I pushed him away & hoped that he would stop coming near me to irritate me! Omg! Ya, that's super bad of me!
I'm so regretted for not spending enough time with him!
SO SHIT OF ME!!! No wonder some ppl called me SHITWEI!!

How I wish I would have a power of rewinding the time!
Rewind back to the time when I first saw him!
I would have another 2-3 years with him!
NO!!!! I will make it a longer time!!!
I will stop feeding him with those unhealthy human's food!
If there's a fairy godmother or whatever that can make my wish come true!
I WILL WISH TO HAVE A LONGER TIME WITH BROWNIE!
TO PLAY LIKE HELL WITH HIM! TO DO WHATEVER I CAN WITH HIM!
Just anything, anything will do, just that he's still alive now!
Lastly, to make him die in a MORE PEACEFUL WAY!

Omg! The images of how he died is flashing through my mind now!
That's awful! I'm feeling AWFUL now!
The way he died was like HELL! Wtf!
I rmb the feeling when the tears were rolling down my cheeks, I shouted for his name, repeating & repeating!
Every time I called him, my heart was so much painful than before!
HELL HELL HELL HELL!!!!!!!!!!!!!
The saddest thing in my life was the time he died! SHIT SHIT SHIT!!!
ALL THE IMAGES ARE COMING BACK TO ME NOW!

How i hope i can dream of him today!!!
Dream that he's back & dream that we are playing so happily & nothing ever ever happen!

I'm so so so angry with my parents today!
They said brownie's ashes caused their luck downfall!
Whatever shit, they & their reasons!
& they even called me to throw away! It's like NO WAY!!!!!
I WILL NEVER EVER THROW IT AWAY! I WANT HIM!
They still called me to bring it to chicky's house!
No, brownie's house is at either yewtee or marsiling! Not tampines!
I think not his ashes brings bad luck!
It's the house, this house!
Whatever thing had happened was after we moved!
Brownie was lost then he's dead! Every bad luck!
Nvm, whatever they think! Just dont throw away my brownie!

Kk, gtg now! Bye everyone!